bahh.

its the most boring saturday ever. i've been practically rotting away at home. didnt go out today, although i was supposed to (oops?). too zonked out. slept at 3am and awoke at 11am, switched on my hp, and i received smses from friends asking why i ponned the outing. sheesh. wasn't intentional really. was too tired after a nite of gaming.

sigh, today is the first night of sjab camp '04. brings back memories of all those camps i attended back in sji, the most memorable of coz the sec 4 one. the one where i made that sec 1 cry, lol. geez, time flies doesn't it? 2 years flashing by, so fast? actually, yia invited me to go crash tonite but i was quite hesitant really. i mean, meeting all of them after one year? what if i have nothing to talk to them about? in the first place, i don't even know any of the current sec 4s personally, and i couldn't care less about them. so i made this lame excuse that i got something on so i wouldn't have to go. feel kinda guilty.

besides that, i'm supposed to be mugging anyway, but i've been suffering from a lack of motivation. motivation to study. today was one of those days again. immobilized by this weird feeling of hopelessness and helplessness, i roamed my house and lazed about in bed all day long. sheesh.

mayb tomorrow will be a better start? wait a minute.. am i starting to get optimistic? wow..