I did this Colourgenics test (sourced from Eunice's blog), and these were the results:

You are seeking protection against anything which might seem to be exhausting you or tiring you out. It would appear that you are seeking a life of security and physical ease, free from any problem or disturbance.

You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.

The results are uncannily true.

So, what am I up to these days, you may ask. Well at the moment I'm being forced to clear my leave (god..I can't believe I've reached this stage!), and in about 3 weeks or less, I would have completed two years of National Service.

I'm beginning to understand what Yt told me the day he ORDed, that there was no real euphoria involved - just an overwhelming sense of burdenlessness and lack of purpose. As hypocritical as it sounds, it is indeed human nature to naturally stick to comfort zones. And mind you, two years can turn the worst of environments to comfort zones as well.

Now that I've reached the end of the road..of national service, I can clearly say I'm not the person I was two years ago. I'm thankful to have met a really diverse bunch of friends in NS, who have opened up my mind and exposed me to very different perspectives on issues. Given a second chance, I'd want things to go exactly the same way- the lessons you learn at NS are valuable, life lessons. Regrettably though, I think I've become a less lively person (or not a very enjoyable person to be around with) over the years. Just look at my blog archives.. I used to be so emo in the past. Well, everyone matures I guess.

I'm just looking ahead with great optimism- I have stuff to do.. I have to get fit, get my driving license and make some money before University starts. Not to mention reacquaint myself with academia.

So for the moment, lets hope these next few weeks go smoothly, and I ORD in one piece!