10:05 PM
today i was chatting with melissa, and the things she mentioned were indeed thought-provoking, and they brought back afresh to memory some of the events that have happened over the past 21 months of college.
question is: why do people change drastically or change for the worse when they go to college?
and so i began wondering, about any significant things that may have occurred in my college life that have somehow affected my character or personality as a whole.
1) jan 2003. entered nj together with the majority of 401'02. the issue was choosing subject combinations. rifts first began to appear when i chose the s7 combi i guess. everyone else had chosen s5 or s6.
2) posted to s7b for the first 3 months. the thing is, i was isolated from glenn, pradip and alwyn who were all in s7c.
3) as i got to know my class better, i felt myself drifting further away from the sji crowd. soon, i stopped hanging out at the sji table in the canteen before assembly every morning. its not like i deliberately chose to do so. its just that my class gathers at the grandstand every morning, and logically speaking, if you enter school by the side gate, you'd most probably stop by the grandstand right? so i never bothered to go up to the canteen.
4) matters pertaining to SC. practically every ex-josephian in nj was running for council, i have no idea why. except me of course. i was strongly against councils of any sort, especially since i hated the PSB back in sji (mainly because of Roger Poulier, but that's another matter anyway). hence, a further drift away from the sji crowd.
5) CCA matters. being the recalcitrant i was, i didn't join ILDDS. in fact, i actually joined the Lion Dance Troupe, which effectively made me an outcast in the eyes of the ILDDS. yea yea, and so everyone raised their eyebrows. who gives a damn. even more contacts severed, but who cares? i totally don't regret joining NJCLD. the people there rock man.
6) the issue of me and my "harem". come on, my class has like 19 girls and 4 guys, what can you possibly expect.
7) revival of the lameoire. me, hanif, arjun- just like the old times.
8) gb and re-establishing ties with sam keef josh etc etc. and the whole string of sagas and dramas accompanying them.
9) X, Y and Z entering (and leaving) my life over the period of the past 1.5 years. i'd rather not elaborate much, they really didn't affect me that much.
indeed, so many things have actually happened to me over the course of college. its hard to say that i have not been affected by them. i appear cold, dao, antisocial to some, overly friendly to others, calm and happy even to some. but i suppose i've tried my best to be the "me" i've been over the years, not letting the environment affect my intrinsic values.
its sad that some people are on the other extreme of the scale. they just go downhill from the moment they step into college, fucking up their reputations and all. i honestly feel that such people are really still good people at heart, its just an unfortunate case of circumstance that they've wound up this way. if they choose to carry themselves in this manner, i reckon its their loss really, not anyone else's.
one shouldn't really lose sleep over trying to maintain relationships with these people. really, if they truly treasured the friendship, they wouldn't have done the things they did.
college is just a lame, childish, superficial place. everyone will more or less come to their senses after they leave college.
and then some will sit back and wonder, how did i carry myself back then? was i really oblivious to everything? did i really cause so much hurt to the people around me?
10:05 PM
today i was chatting with melissa, and the things she mentioned were indeed thought-provoking, and they brought back afresh to memory some of the events that have happened over the past 21 months of college.
question is: why do people change drastically or change for the worse when they go to college?
and so i began wondering, about any significant things that may have occurred in my college life that have somehow affected my character or personality as a whole.
1) jan 2003. entered nj together with the majority of 401'02. the issue was choosing subject combinations. rifts first began to appear when i chose the s7 combi i guess. everyone else had chosen s5 or s6.
2) posted to s7b for the first 3 months. the thing is, i was isolated from glenn, pradip and alwyn who were all in s7c.
3) as i got to know my class better, i felt myself drifting further away from the sji crowd. soon, i stopped hanging out at the sji table in the canteen before assembly every morning. its not like i deliberately chose to do so. its just that my class gathers at the grandstand every morning, and logically speaking, if you enter school by the side gate, you'd most probably stop by the grandstand right? so i never bothered to go up to the canteen.
4) matters pertaining to SC. practically every ex-josephian in nj was running for council, i have no idea why. except me of course. i was strongly against councils of any sort, especially since i hated the PSB back in sji (mainly because of Roger Poulier, but that's another matter anyway). hence, a further drift away from the sji crowd.
5) CCA matters. being the recalcitrant i was, i didn't join ILDDS. in fact, i actually joined the Lion Dance Troupe, which effectively made me an outcast in the eyes of the ILDDS. yea yea, and so everyone raised their eyebrows. who gives a damn. even more contacts severed, but who cares? i totally don't regret joining NJCLD. the people there rock man.
6) the issue of me and my "harem". come on, my class has like 19 girls and 4 guys, what can you possibly expect.
7) revival of the lameoire. me, hanif, arjun- just like the old times.
8) gb and re-establishing ties with sam keef josh etc etc. and the whole string of sagas and dramas accompanying them.
9) X, Y and Z entering (and leaving) my life over the period of the past 1.5 years. i'd rather not elaborate much, they really didn't affect me that much.
indeed, so many things have actually happened to me over the course of college. its hard to say that i have not been affected by them. i appear cold, dao, antisocial to some, overly friendly to others, calm and happy even to some. but i suppose i've tried my best to be the "me" i've been over the years, not letting the environment affect my intrinsic values.
its sad that some people are on the other extreme of the scale. they just go downhill from the moment they step into college, fucking up their reputations and all. i honestly feel that such people are really still good people at heart, its just an unfortunate case of circumstance that they've wound up this way. if they choose to carry themselves in this manner, i reckon its their loss really, not anyone else's.
one shouldn't really lose sleep over trying to maintain relationships with these people. really, if they truly treasured the friendship, they wouldn't have done the things they did.
college is just a lame, childish, superficial place. everyone will more or less come to their senses after they leave college.
and then some will sit back and wonder, how did i carry myself back then? was i really oblivious to everything? did i really cause so much hurt to the people around me?
