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Thursday, September 30, 2004
9:10 PM

Romaji

koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
chigau koto wa kore ga saigo no HEARTBREAK
sakura sae kaze no naka de yurete
yagate hana wo sakasuyo

furidashita natsuno ame ga
namida no yoko wo tootta sutto
omoide to daburu eizou
aki no DORAMA no saihousou

doushite onaji youna PANCHI
nandomo kurachaunda
soredemo mata tatakaun darou
sore ga inochi no fushigi

koi wo shite subete sasage
negau koto wa kore ga saigo no HEARTBREAK
sakura sae toki no naka de yurete
yagate hana wo sakasuyo

kurikaesu kisetsu no naka de
kutsu ga surihetteku motto

kata no chikara naitte
kako wa dokokani shimatteoke
kokokara sou tookunai darou
mitakotomo nai keshiki

tomaranai mune no itami
kore de motto kimi ni chikazukitai yo
hitomawari shite wa modori
aoi sora wo zutto kasaguri

koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
chigau koto wa kore ga saisho no GOOD DAY
sakura made kaze no nakade
yurete sooto kimi ni te wo nobasuyo


English Translation

Falling in love, saying goodbye
With a vow that this is the last heartbreak
Even the cherry tree, swaying in the wind
Will eventually blossom

The summer rain that started to fall
gently streaked past my tears
Images that resemble memories
Autumn's drama reruns

Why have I suffered
Almost the same blows such countless times?
But even so, I'll probably fight again
That is one of life's mysteries

Falling in love, giving it everything
With a wish that this is the last heartbreak
Even the cherry tree, swaying through time
Will eventually blossom

In the revolving seasons
My shoes are wearing out, more and more

Let go the tension in your shoulders
So you can seal away the past somewhere
From here they're probably not too far
Sceneries you haven't even seen

I want to overcome the ceaseless pain in my chest
And become closer to you
I have wandered about once and returned
Always grasping for the blue sky

Falling in love, saying goodbye
With a vow that today's the first good day
Everything, even the cherry tree, swaying in the wind
Softly reaches out toward you


-Sakura Drops, Hikaru Utada

4:39 PM

got back maths and econs today. i only got 59 for maths..zz. seems like the 2 days of studying for pure and 1 day of stats didnt pay off. and its like 1 MARK away from B..sigh.

econs was quite a surprise really. for the 3.5 hours of studying the night before.. 58 after moderation isn't too bad, is it? got 17/30 for mcq only.. failed essays too. 36/75. and barely passed DRQ. i guess case study saved me.. coz i got 19/30. isn't it ironic? case study, the saving grace? lol. aiya, if i had mugged abit more i could have gotten B, sigh..

waiting for bio and gp results. hope they won't be too sucky tho.. in the meantime, its time to plan a proper revision schdeule that i'm gonna ADHERE to. seriously.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004
1:29 AM

ah, the onset (or should i say relapse) of bipolar disorder. after a period of intense highs (post-prelim slacking) comes the doldrums (sch reopening) again. fuck it.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004
4:22 PM

zzz..in the end we didn't stay over coz there wasn't even 3 people who were willing and able to stay. sniff. but i learnt how to play mahjong though, LOL. can u imagine, me? they made me mug all the chinese characters. yt wrote me a reference guide so that i could match the symbols to their meanings, lol. hilarious. in the end, i lost not because of lack of skill, but because of lack of luck (LOL really!). but then, i won the final game. what a finale. lol.

z..got back chem results today, i got 49/100? i thought i'd fail actually, for that 2 days of work. barely passed paper 1, got 27/60 for paper 2 (basically everything was wrong, i didn't see any ticks at all), and i think i got 45 for paper 3 (left out chem eqm, acid base eqm questions.. worth about 20m?). prac was the worst, i got 0 for half of the QA and one entire design was left blank. lol.

isn't it a miracle that i passed? it will be a miracle if i get A for As too.

Monday, September 27, 2004
1:32 AM

oh my. stayin over at yewtze's house tmr. bridge + maybe movies and some drinks. mad fun.

Sunday, September 26, 2004
10:53 AM

When you're taught
through feelings

Destiny flying high above
all I know is that
you can realize it

Destiny who cares
as it turns around
and I know that it descends
down on me

It's just another day
the shame is gone
hard to believe
that I've let it go

Destiny can't replace my life
Scary shadows of my past
are alive

Destiny who cares
as it turns around
and I know that it descends
with a smile

It's just another day
the shame is gone
it's hard to believe
that I've let it go away

It's just a melody
it bleeds in me
hard to believe
that I've let it go


Swamped, Lacuna Coil

10:33 AM

woke up with a terrible headache. i had a really weird dream. i dreamt that i was working in josh's cafe (lol). and van, liz, sam and keef were all there. apparently van and liz were waitresses, sam and keef were the chefs. i was some kitchen manager or whatever you call that. and everyone was in a bad mood. liz was having a fever i think, and she was walking around mumbling to herself. van was yelling away in the kitchen coz she was harrassed by a male customer -_-' and then keef and sam got pissed and started complaining about how they were overworked. in the end, everyone was practically throwing kitchen utensils at each other. not to mention food. whole chickens and lobsters flying around. and then, i walked out of the kitchen, and sat down and stoned at the cashier's desk. while everyone else continued to fight. and i stoned, and stoned, and stoned....until i woke up this morning. wtf?

zz.. bad day bad day. i feel grumpy and sullen. another encounter with the doldrums..zz

btw, i wonder if keeft is okay? his housemate should know that he couldn't possibly have stolen a laptop and an MD from him right? sheesh.

Saturday, September 25, 2004
8:27 AM

on the other hand, maybe i shouldn't have posted the pics. i've been getting strange comments all day..lol. whats wrong with reliving childhood ar. lol..zz

Friday, September 24, 2004
7:12 PM

for your viewing pleasure..lol


front: shiyun. yan yi. me. back: shao pin. yew tze. huijun


some weird looking bird..


elephant show. lol.


back: mel. hz. me. shao. front: yt. syun. hj. yy.


more pics later. ciao

6:01 PM

oh my. how tired i am. talk about sleeping at 5am the night before last, only to wake up and chat on the phone for 4 hours the next morning.lol. today was the long awaited class outing, to the zoo.LOL. ok la, the turnout was not bad? 8 of us- me, yt, shao, hj, hz, syun, yy and mel. not bad la, going around seeing the animals.. it rained in the late afternoon -.- anyhow, there was this cool butterfly trail, and the scorpions and tarantulas were quite cool. and the white tigers. after that, since i passed by bukit panjang i decided to get a haircut. what a mad idea, talk about killing two birds with one stone. as usual the barber was cutting my hair according to his own style la, i didnt even have a chance to give any instructions. so its all spiky now. again. nvm, at least its better than the ikan bilis hairstyle. speaking of which, keeft recommended that i use hair clay/mud. sounds abit revolting, lol..i asked him to get me a sample when he comes back from aussie. i'll try then.

on a heavier note, sometimes i just don't understand why some girls are so hypocritical. they want a relationship where its the first time for the guy (meaning the guy didnt have any exes before) when THEY THEMSELVES have had tonnes of exes before. i mean, what's the logic behind this? why can't we just leave the past as it is?

Thursday, September 23, 2004
5:04 PM

You represent... angst.

You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.

What feeling do you represent?
brought to you by Quizilla

geez, i'm not some angsty fiesty teenager anymore, i've changed!! stupid quiz.

4:52 PM

ripped off huijun's blog..

The Justice Card

You are the Justice card. Justice preserves the
harmony of the world. Working with opposite
forces, Justice does not seek to criticize or
condemn but rather to accept. The idea behind
the card justice is that opposite forces are
complementary; you could not have good without
evil or light without darkness. Justice's
position is to make sure that if a thing is out
of balance, the weight of its energy is
realigned with its opposite force. This card is
also a card of humour, for it is in pointing
out contrary positions that humour is often
found. The attitude that is found in the
humourous person, being able to shift
perspective and flow with an instinct, is
important in the maintenance of good balance.

Image from The Blue Moon Tarot Deck.
http://www.themysticeye.com/pics/bluemoon.htm

Which Tarot Card Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Is that pic androgynous, or what? LOL

4:18 PM

Before eyes that are blind no more
A sight unseen that tears the soul
All we ever loved and known
Into mass graves is what we're shown

"We see an ocean once was land"
& So they come to understand
This place where man used to be born
Will be man's water throne

"All that was magical, beautiful,
will be gone"
These measures call for divine intervention
"All the achievements of man,
one will stand all alone"
One that survives the final selection
The sand in the hour glass,
moves so fast, slow the sand
And nothing that mankind has strived for
will be left in ocean land

The rain will fall then
Filling the dried land

"Here are we, servants three
flesh and blood
Poor and weak,
hear thou speak of the flood"

It must be a sign
A message from God's hand


-Ocean Land, Orphaned Land

no, i'm not a metal convert, but this is really a mad song. middle eastern instrumental + metal bass + great lyrics. sexy.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004
11:15 AM

- Name: jayy
- Birth date: 080486
- Birthplace: SG
- Current Location: upper bukit timah
- Eye Color: dark brown
- Hair Colour: black
- Height: 166cm
- Weight: 70kg
- Right handed or Left handed: right
- Heritage: templar, oh how i yearn to be reunited with my brethren on Shakuras.
- Weakness: deception.
- Biggest fear : fear? i'm apathetic to anything and everything, thank you.
- Your perfect pizza: Supereme Chicken Pizza from pizza hut? stuffed crust. extra cheese. mad.
- Goals you'd like to achieve: MUG for As, NOT screw up As, survive NS, and study at melb uni.
- Most overused phrase(s): Lame, Sian
- Thoughts first waking up: A strange dream? Again?
- Best physical feature: comeon, you don't wanna know
- Usual bedtime: Early nite (Rare/Never): 11pm. Late nite (Almost always): 2 or 3am.
- Most missed memory: my days back at SJI.
- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
- McDonald's or Burger King: Mac. i'm sick of BK already.
- Single or group dates: Definitely single.
- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestle tea: Neither. i only drink darjeeling tea.
- Chocolate or vanilla: Both?
- Cappuccino or Latte: Latte
- Smoke: nah
- Have enemies: i'd like to think everyone is an enemy unless proven otherwise.
- Sing: yup
- Cry: sometimes.
- Take a shower every day: doh.
- Have a crush(es): Yes
- Think you've been in love: yes
- Want to get married: maybe
- Believe in yourself: when i'm passionate, that is.
- Get motion sickness: occasionally.
- Think you're attractive: nope.
- Think you're a health freak: me? lol.
- Get along with your parents: nope.
- Like thunderstorms: definitely.
- Play an instrument: yeah.

In the past month, you?
- Drank alcohol: yup
- Gone on a date: hmmm..
- Gone to the mall: yea.
- Eaten sushi: no
- Been on stage: no
- Gone skating: never.

- Age you hope to be married: undefined
- Numbers and Names of Childrens: undefined
- Describe your Dream Wedding: apathetic
- How do you want to die: death is such a complex issue, i can't even begin to elaborate.
- What do you want to be when you grow up?: Live up in the mountains with books and music and keeft
- Drugs taken illegally: none. though i've contemplated taking....nvm.
- People I trust with my life: "trust no one" - The X Files
- CDs u own: Garbage, Enigma, and all of Sugababes' albums.
- Piercings: none, should i pierce my left ear?
- Tattoos: none.
- Scars on my body: lots.
- Things in my past: ? lets not talk about my past
- Music are you listening to now?: Bjork- Joga
- Time is it now?: 11.32am
- Your handphone model?: Nokia 6230
- What are the THINGS you treasure the most?: ..i don't display such strong affection for anything. maybe my watch, my comp?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004
10:05 PM

oh well, speculation IS a form of unproductive activity. lol. Paper 2 was totally not what i expected it to be. another paper screwed, another day ends, i'm so getting used to this routine.

last paper tmr. bio paper 1. lets break the cycle tmr, shall we?

10:01 PM

Did it start with an obsession?
Was the writing on the wall?
I can see through your deception
Through it all
I see clearly now

For too long you've had it your way
For too long I've tiptoed round
Finally we're face to face boy
No drama now
I'll stand my ground

[Chorus:]

Now the conversation's over
And there's nothing more to say
I've had my time with you
So hear me now
I won't stay
It's my turn to walk away

No point in talking round in circles
Or trying to read between the lines
I saw you dancing with the devil
I'm not blind
Don't sympathise
Cos for too long you've played your own game

For too long I've stood and cried
It's time I changed the combination
I'll be fine
Won't change my mind

[Chorus]

I've found the strength to finally say it
What the walls have heard a thousand times
And I just don't want pain
I know I'll go insane
I've reconnected my mind

[Chorus x2]


-Conversation's Over, Sugababes


9:13 AM

econs today, paper 1 and 2, how? i feel damn insecure cos i didnt prepare anything for data response (is there anything to prepare anyway?). was reading melissa's blog, i share the same sentiments. hope mkt structure won't come out. but i've a feeling data response will be on micro, something like wages or mkt failure, and case study on macro. lets see, BOP? or perhaps foreign exchange? we still haven't been tested on them.

initially i aimed to get C or B, so as not to let limGC down, who has high hopes on me (for no apparent reason) and keeps pressurising me.

but sadly to say, i'm really a noob at econs la. hopefully i can pull through with an E, hope limGC won't be too disappointed la.

2 more days to end of prelims.. jiayou ar guys.

qui fait bien c'est finit bien. (at least for you guys who studied hard...)

Monday, September 20, 2004
1:36 PM

zz..whatever la. i think i'll just aim for an E or perhaps a D for math. econs tmr? case study/data response? how's that gonna salvage my econs? F it will be.

anyways yesterday was nugget's birthday (right?). remember to carry on the kun dynasty..lol. enjoy yourself. zz..its not like being 18 is any fun. but anyway. thats besides the point.

i'll go browse blogs for awhile and then i'mm off for a nap. ya know, its funny how people behave so differently on their blogs as compared to real life. heh, just a thought. cya.

Saturday, September 18, 2004
1:13 PM

its just the system in school. we are just suppressed, thats whats happening to us. we have a useless council that doesnt side with the school population and a lousy admin that just can`t do anything right. and if you're reading this and you belong to one of the above named 2 parties, what are you going to do? sue me? go ahead and expel me. it will just prove the fact that there's just no freedom of anything at all in this school (well particularly, freedom of speech).

woah woah..teenage angst coming from the old me, from the old blog. i guess i've left all my angst behind me now. living a fake and apathetic lifestyle, its more rewarding to me at this point in time.

anyhoo..3 more days to end of prelims. jiayou ar guys.

8:03 AM

oh god, i finally watched that documentary keeft kept asking me to watch, and it left me feeling quite stunned. it was one of those 9/11 conspiracy theory documentaries. at first, i was really skeptical cos most of such docs just go on and on speculating about ridiculous things. i still remember, there was one where they hypothesized that bush was an alien -.-

but thats besides the point, anyway this documentary was a really good one. basically it provided certain evidence about 9/11 that simply cannot be dismissed. quote, "a conspiracy only remains a theory if no evidence regarding it exists. but as long as there's even one tiny, flimsy piece of supporting evidence, a conspiracy theory becomes a conspiracy". excellently said by the narrator, who was the one who did the research on this thing as well.

basically they presented two disturbing pieces of evidence. one was that the hole created by the supposed crash of the 757 into the Pentagon, was in fact too small to be created by a plane. the dimensions of the hole itself were so much smaller than a 757 plane, wtf? and, the outer walls of the Pentagon remained unscathed after the supposed crash. AND, some phtotos actually show the vicinity of the "crash", and the adjacent offices were damaged so minimally. in fact you could actually see books that had not burnt, and intact computer monitors, wtf? how could there be so little damage if a PLANE ctashed into the Pentagon? AND, the 757 was apparently carrying 86,000 gallons of fuel with it, which according to engineers and physicists, would have resulted in an immense fire that would have lasted for days and would have reduced the entire Pentagon to rubble. but what do we see? an unbelievably small hole at the "crash"site, offices in the vicinity virtually unscathed, and most of all, there was totally no wreckage found of the plane. how can this be. if a goddamn 757 had really crashlanded, there has to be some wreckage right?

the other evidence was regarding the world trade centre. basically they presented the videos of the two planes crashing into the two towers, shown in superslow motion, and we can see something which none of us saw in the usual footage we've been exposed to. what happened is, just before the plane made contact with the buliding, a "flash" was seen, like an explosion that occured even before the plane crashed. how could that be? and mind you, its not just a reflection. and even firemen who were at the scene claimed that there were sequential explosions occuring on every floor of the tower that sent it crashing to the ground. and, firsthand evidence from passers-by states that the airliner wasnt a commerical jet, coz it didnt have windows on the sides, and had a weird logo that noone recognized. so what was it? a military jet? AND what really happened to the commercial airliner that supposedly crashed into the tower?

i cannot even begin to comprehend the overwhelming implications if these are indeed true. i mean, a planned detonation of the north and south towers? how the heck did people manage to wire the entire two towers with exlosives and go totally unnoticed? if its really true, could it have been an obscenely elaborate plan to enable Bush to implement Patriot Acts? ama lar, how many people died in vain?

i think its a very good documentary that really raises some issues that you just can't dismiss. the thing is, they only aired it once on TV, and anyway, i expect the producer of this documentary to be detained/killed by some special forces of Bush or sent to some unkown prison or something. sigh, nothing will change will it? Bush is winning anyway. there's no hope for Kerry. maybe, like keeft and i discussed, if Kerry comes into office, he'll expose all those classified CIA files covering up the truth from the world. a classic case of the X files.

still, IF this conspiracy theory is true, i hope Bush will be publically beheaded and burnt. by the american people themselves. bah, he was gonna burn in hell anyway.

Thursday, September 16, 2004
9:13 AM

i was feeling bored, so i explored this interesting link on nav's blog..

Jenny Turpish Slapped Me: The 20 Questions to a Better Relationship Quiz

eXpressive: 4/10
Practical: 6/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 3/10

You are a RPIT--Reserved Practical Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Love Geek.

Heh heh -- you love geek! You are weirdly sexy. It doesn't take people a long time to get to know you, but people *think* it takes a long time, because you are as cool and regulated after a year as you are on a first meeting. You don't tend to date casually -- you just suddenly find yourself in long term relationships.

Your approach to conflict is your greatest asset -- it complements almost every other type. You don't express yourself or your feelings in dramatic terms, but you will speak up to those who do. You are generally calm, but capable of ramping up, and you don't give up until the issue is resolved -- this means even the hottest temper or coolest conflict-avoider can feel comfortable pursuing their satisfaction with you. And you don't hold a grudge -- you get through it, and it's done. You rock.

Sure, you like the sex. And you communicate with your partner well, so you're good at it. But it's not something you would make jokes about or bring up in polite company (not that you don't appreciate that kind of humor). You're no prude, but that's just not your style.

You'd make an excellent parent.

You enjoy food and can be a ravenous eater. A good cook will get your attention quickly.

Of the 79042 people who have taken this quiz, 5.1 % are this type.

--

i'm a love geek. LOL.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004
9:01 PM

you know, i just noticed that everyone around me is going through some form of turmoil or another be it family problems, girlfriend problems, friendship problems, or other things of that sort. and come to think of it, i've actually spent alot of time counselling four people. not that i had a choice la, they just kinda poured out their problems to me and i listened. and it felt kinda rewarding helping them to get through their doldrums. maybe i should just be a counsellor, eh?

its not like i dont have problems, i just choose not to bring them up. i rather keep my demons to myself. as for relationships, just don't be too hasty lar. and don't just be in one for the fun of it. maybe i'm conservative, but i think relationships are meant to be taken seriously. thinking back about my past, i'm reminded of all those ugly things that actually happened which i told noone about. or rather, i only told my closest friends.

on a lighter note, i think i feel much better being single now, really. zz.whatever. good luck for prelims ppl.

11:46 AM

Exam you just sat for: Prelims. Economics Paper 3.

Preliminary preparations: Erm. From 9pm-12.10am last nite.

Feelings during the exam: wow! wages came out! LOL. and only 2 macro questions? great! i'm screwed!

Projected Grade: what projected grade? F lah. 3 hours of studying, you think i can pass is it?

Monday, September 13, 2004
1:38 PM

When everything is going wrong
And you can't see the point in going on
Well nothing in life is set in stone
There's nothing that can't be turned around

Nobody wants to feel alone
And everybody wants to love someone
Out of the tree go pick a plum
Why can't we all just get along?

[Chorus:]
Boys in the girls room
Girls in the men's room
You free your mind in your androgyny
Boys in the parlor
They're getting harder
I'll free your mind and your androgyny

No sweeter a taste that you could find
Than fruit hanging ripe upon the vine
There's never been an oyster so divine
A river deep that never runs dry

The birds and bees they hum along
Like treasures they twinkle in the sun
Get on board and have some fun
Take what you need to turn you on

[chorus]

Behind closed doors and under stars
It doesn't matter where you are
Collecting jewels that catch your eye
Don't let a soulmate pass you by

[chorus]


-Androgyny, Garbage

lol mad song huh. its one of those old songs i used to listen to, brought back to memory by sam and josh.

1:26 PM

in the past, no matter how badly i screwed the exams, i would scrape through with at least an E. that was the past, anyways. Now, prelims are nigh, or rather, they've started i mean, and i think i'm gonna get Fs. for real. ama la, an F on the progress report. how damn demoralising.

btw, the L'oreal FX Studio Freeze! gel kinda sux. i used it today, and my hair kinda stood up unnaturally, and now it feels like dried ikan bilis.

gross. bb. i'm going to sleep..nite

bio and maths tmr..gg

Friday, September 10, 2004
11:38 AM

illusions never let anyone down do they? depression? i beg to differ...NOT

11:32 AM

You'll rescue me right?
in the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right?
when your healing powers kick in

You'll complete me right?
then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?
only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

[chorus:]
These precious illusions in my head
did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting
with invisible best friends

This ring will help me yet
as will you knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet
as will these boys gone through like water

But this won't work as well as the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

[chorus:]
These precious illusions in my head
did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting
with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

But this won't work now the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

[repeat chorus 1 & 2]


-Precious Illusions, Alanis Morissette

Thursday, September 09, 2004
1:07 PM

how? i'm hopeless. i've only completed maths and 0.5 of chem, its already thursday. 3 more days to complete bio and econs? who am i kidding? i wonder what has happened to me over these years. back in sji, i was a slacker, but somehow i always managed to do decently in exams. now in nj, i've realised i've become an even worse slacker? seems that s7 culture is so different from the s6 culture. in fact, the s6 people actually demoralise me, because they've already finished their revision. and they're practising now. some, are already dreaming about the As on the progress report (which they'll get anyway). what about me? i'm aiming to pass..ha.

dunno, maybe i'm not cut out for this SG education system, i'm of too low a calibre already. university life threatens to be even worse than college life (in SG at least). sure, you want a change of environment, but is the grass really greener on the other side? if i make it to melb uni, will i make it through?

i suppose 16 is really the "prime" of your life. sweet 16. after that, everything goes downhill. at least for me. going to college. screwing up prelims. screwing up the As. going for fukin NS (PES B).

zzzzz i hate my life

Tuesday, September 07, 2004
7:33 PM

luckily, the wise words of Glenn have remninded me. THAT I HAVENT STUDIED ECONS ALSO.

i'm gged.

8:32 AM

i'm quite worried.

you see, prelims starts on monday. and what have i studied? maths. (excluding STATS.) excluding. repeat: excluding.

so today, i'm studying organic chem. and tomorrow will be physical+inorganic (wtf??!).

which leaves me around 3 days to study bio (lol..)

i'm hopeless.

8:19 AM

tagboard's gone all wonky again. tmd. i'll post replies later -_-'

Monday, September 06, 2004
11:36 AM

[talking]
Uhh uhh uhh.
You ready B? Let's go get 'em..

[Verse 1: Jay-Z (J)]
Look for me! Young, B
Cruisin down the westside - high, way
Doing what we like to do - our, way
Eyes behind shades, this necklace the reason
all of my dates been blind dates
But today, I got my thoroughest girl wit me
I'm mashin the gas, she's grabbin the wheel, it's true to the heart
She rides with me - the new Bobby and Whitney
Only time we don't speak is during "Sex and the City"
She gets Carrie fever, but soon as the show is over
She's right back to being my soldier
Cuz mami's a rider, and I'm a roller
Put us together, how they gon' stop both us?
What ever she lacks, I'm right over her shoulder
When I'm off track mami is keepin me focused
So let's, lock this down like it's supposed to be
The '03 Bonnie and Clyde, Hov' and B

[Chorus]
[J] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[Beyonce (B)] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.
[J] All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend.
[B] Down to ride 'til the very end, it's me and my boyfriend.

[Verse 2: Jay-Z]
The problem is, you dudes treat the one that you lovin
with the same respect that you treat the one that you humpin
Now they 'bout nothin - if ever you mad about somethin
It won't be that; oh no it won't be that
I don't be at, places where we comfy at
With no be-atch; oh no you won't see that
And no, I ain't perfect - nobody walkin this earth's surface is
But girlfriend, work with the kid
I keep you workin' at Hermes, Birkin Bag
Manolo Blahnik, Timbs, aviator lens
600 drops, Mercedes Benz
The only time you wear Burberry to swim
And I don't have to worry, only worry is him
She do anything necessary for him
And I do anything necessary for her
so don't let the necessary occur, yep!

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Beyonce]
(Talk to 'em B)
If I was your girlfriend
I'll be there for you, if somebody hurts you
Even if that sombody's me
Yeah-hee (break it down for 'em)
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be
And so I put this on my life
Nobody or nothing will ever come between us
And I promise I'll give my life
my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend
Put this on my life
The air that I breathe in, all that I believe in
I promise I'll give my life
my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend

[Chorus]


-03 Bonnie & Clyde, Jay-Z featuring Beyonce Knowles

8:49 AM

Ripped off nav's blog:

You have been sent to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)High
Level 2 (Lustful)Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

awww. if only i'd been a little better, i'd be sent to purgatory! everyone, repeat after me: *awwwwwwww*

Friday, September 03, 2004
11:15 PM

when i have the time, and money (which better be soon), i will buy Bjork's new album, Medulla. And Debut, Post, Homogenic and Vespertine.

Thursday, September 02, 2004
12:47 PM

And far away, as Frodo put on the Ring and claimed it for his own, even in Sammath Naur the very heart of his realm, the Power in Barad-dur was shaken, and the Tower trembled from its foundations to its proud and bitter crown. The Dark Lord was suddenly aware of him, and his eye piercing all shadows looked across the plain to the door that he had made; and the magnitude of his own folly was revealed to him in a blinding flash, and all the devices of his enemies were at last laid bare. Then his wrath blazed in consuming flame, but his fear rose like a vast black smoke to choke him. For he knew his deadly peril and the thread upon which his doom now hung.

From all his policies and webs of fear and treachery, from all his strategems and wars his mind shook free; and throughout his realm a tremor ran, his slaves quailed, and his armies halted, and his captains suddenly steerless, bereft of will, wavered and despaired. For they were forgotten. The whole mind and purpose of the Power that wielded them was now bent with overwhelming force upon the Mountain. At his summons, wheeling with a rending cry, in a last desperate race there flew, faster than the winds, the Nazgul, the Ringwraiths, and with a storm of wings they hurtled southwards to Mount Doom.


-from Book Six, Chapter III: Mount Doom, The Return of the King, The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien

9:42 AM

did i say "problems"? i meant "issues".

Wednesday, September 01, 2004
8:02 PM

i've just realised. everyone around me is involved in some kinda strife? -_-' relationship probs/ quarrels/ friends acting hostile/etc etc etc.

and then you step back and think, "and i thought i was the only one with problems."

10:19 AM

yesterday, i was casually browsing through the Age of Mythology webby, and i discovered that they released an expansion pack called The Titans OMG!! and it was released in North America in September 2003. so is it on sale in SG? ama la, i will have to go down to Funan after prelims to check. I HAVE to have it. there's a new civilisation (Atlanteans) in addition to the original three (Greek, Egyptian, Norse). sweeeeeekk!

and i was reading the newspaper yesterday, and i read this full page ad about the Creative Warehouse Sale on from 3-5 September. and there's this crazy offer on the first day. They're selling a Creative ZenTouch 20GB mp3 player, with an FM wired remote, all for $399 (usual price $638). wtf!! its too good a deal! but they only have 20 units for sale!! arghhh. which means i have to rush down to the Creative HQ to get my hands on it this friday.

luckily, i decided to skip sch on friday weeks ago.
no regrets, LOL!

10:02 AM

Don't let your head
rule your heart
Don't let your world
be torn apart
Don't keep it all
to yourself

Just let all your emotions run free
with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

I know its hard
when you're feeling down
To lift your feet
up off the ground
We make mistakes
but doesn't everybody

You don't always have to agree
with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

We know the story so far
What you want and who you are

Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me


-Someone Like Me, Atomic Kitten