you know, if i wasn't so hostile and antisocial, i think my social circle would have been like 100x bigger. generally, i classify people into two categories, 'evil' or 'non-evil' (haha teo i was influenced by you). so either you're evil or you're not. to me that is. evil, by my definition would be someone who has bad intentions that would somehow affect me adversely, or someone who's just too retarded or lame for me (so you say, but aren't you lame yourself? go ahead, call me a hypocrite) to even talk to (ie. fucktards). as a result, i've actually unknowingly classified normal, even nice people into the evil category, coz of my paranoia. so i've realised.

today after bio tut, zy suddenly approached me, and he started talking to me about our tutor and that horrendous lesson that we just had, but i kinda held back you know and although we were both headed for the maths lec, i chose to walk by another way, just so that our conversation would just end there. i felt awkward after that. i realise there are alot of people who have been trying to be on friendly terms with me and yet i just shove them away coz i'm so hostile. weird right?

so i've decided, i've got to try to be nicer to people from now onwards.

hmm....should i go for ld tmr? i miss playin da drums! sigh~