some days you know you're right. some days everything just screw up and you don't even know what you're thinking. well, my life nowadays seems to be composed of the latter. i think i'm beginning to get bipolar disorder.

Bipolar disorder is characterized by an alternating pattern of emotional highs (mania) and lows (depression). The intensity of the signs and symptoms varies. Bipolar disorder can range from a mild condition to a severe condition.

For many people, signs and symptoms in the manic phase may include:

Feelings of euphoria, extreme optimism and inflated self-esteem
Rapid speech, racing thoughts, agitation and increased physical activity
Poor judgment
Recklessness or taking chances not normally taken
Difficulty sleeping
Tendency to be easily distracted
Inability to concentrate
Extreme irritability

In the depression phase, signs and symptoms include:

Persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt or hopelessness
Disturbances in sleep and appetite
Fatigue and loss of interest in daily activities
Difficulty in concentrating
Recurring thoughts of suicide

-sourced from www.mayoclinic.com

its scary isn't it? especially when you know you used to be calm, stable and focussed. and now you can't even get a hold of yourself. what am i to do? i don't know. time will tell.

---- messaged me online yesterday. ---- said "hi". i replied, "hello". ---- then said, "hi". it was clear that ---- was trying to be funny. i can't stand hypocrites. after the exchange of smses that day, sadly, i found out the truth about ----. or should i say, ----'s true colours? i felt like a complete moron for actually having faith in ----. enough said. just fuck off. i don't need to hear anything from you again. and STOP messaging me online.

.bye